Here is a poem I wrote a while ago, but is what I consider to be my best.
I loved you, Then
I know what I need is rescue
As I plunge farther and farther away from you.
I tumble down this cascading wall
As everything around me seems to fall.
My heart is slowly crumbling apart
For the time has come for our paths to part.
My smile is now forever gone
And the same goes for my liking of dawn.
Because the sun that would rise
Only reminds me of the endless blue sky.
But now darkness is all that I can see
As the pain you have brought engulfs me
And no I cannot see the twinkling stars
I only trace my terrible scars.
Crystal tears well in my eyes
As my buried feelings for you begin to arise.
And when I think of you I feel a pang
Where my love for you once desperately clang.
My mind is still trying to understand,
Why hurting me was your demand.
How do you not see that you impair
Confusion and hurt with your love and care?
Are you waiting for me to explain
Why loving you brought me pain?
Can you not see it all has to do
With the undying love I have for you?
Your shining eyes and smile are so sweet
They make my drumming heart go offbeat.
But the last time I saw your face
My heart did not begin to race.
For what you told me then
Is what will now repeat in my mind again and again.
My heart bleeds with the love I have lost
As I learn what true love costs.
I thought we had feelings to share
But I was the only one with care.
Why did you wish for me to leave?
For I really once did believe
That you loved me as much as I did you
But I guess it just wasn’t true.
I also must ask before goodbye
Did I ever once tell you a lie?
Was I the reason you ran away?
Were you afraid, or too scared to stay?
As you walk in the opposite direction
My heart fills with unbearable rejection.
For now it is written across my heart in pen
I loved you deeply then.
